I've reached a local maxima in my career
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(Welcome to #NaBloPoMo - National Blog Posting Month. I'm publishing a new blog post every day in November.)
My employer encourages employees to have "career conversations" with their line manager. And I hate it. I don't resent them for making me participate, and it's probably good for me to engage in a little introspection. But that doesn't mean I can't whine like a petulant toddler.
Since my dreams of being the first astronaut to win an Oscar® crumbled to dust, I haven't known what I want out of my professional life. I am a complete career magpie, going "Oooh! Shiny!" and hopping jobs to the next fun thing.
For the last five years, I've been at the same grade at work. I haven't been doing the same job - I've transferred teams and departments multiple times. I've also - to my surprise - received a few pay-rises. I'm far too British to discuss my actual salary - but it is good. Not quite as good as if I were working in the private sector - but I get a decent pension, generous holidays, and reasonable job security.
I'm now at the point where I face several challenges to moving up to the next grade.
My pay - G7 DDaT Technology Specialist Architect Accomplished B - now exceeds the standard pay for the next grade up and, in some cases, the grade after that. Which means either taking a pay cut, or trying to find a department which has the budget to go beyond the standard pay scales. Last year I turned down a job at a higher grade because they were reluctant to even match what I was currently on. The same pay for more responsibility? Yeah, nah. Which brings me on to the next issue…
My management ambitions - I have none. I've been a team leader and line manager and I didn't enjoy either experience. And, crucially, I don't think I was particularly good at it. People deserve managers who are interested in people and their development. That's not me - and I have no desire to either fake it, or learn to do it better. All of the jobs I've seen at the next grade up require people management.
My workload - I like having a life. I work my hours and finish on time. I occasionally have an out-of-hours call, but that's rare. I've done jobs where I flew all over the world at short notice. It's fun for a while, but not something I'm looking for any more. My job is sometimes stressful, but work are good at making sure I'm looking after myself. And it's tempered by knowing what I'm working on matters. Which leads on to…
My impact - maybe I'm naïve, but I believe in the transformative power of the state's technological offering. Would I get that satisfaction from helping make shareholders a little richer? Or fiddling around with a niche product? I only have a limited time on Earth and I've like to work on something that I consider important. I know that I could go work at a hedge-fund and donate my outsized salary to charity - but I want to help practically.
My risk tolerance - a little while ago I held discussions with a cool start-up to be their CTO. It didn't work out for a variety of reasons. But one of the big ones was my attitude to risk. Do I want to gamble that the thing I work on will get acquired by Zuck? Even if I lucked out, would it materially change my life? I try to stay off the hedonic treadmill. But I already own all the houses, toys, and private jets that I want. The upside of a massive risk doesn't seem particularly attractive to me right now.
In short, I've reached a local maxima. The only journey from here appears to be downwards. Either a cut in salary or in quality of life. If I make it through that valley, the upside is… what exactly? It feels like that old joke about the MBA who tells a casual fisherman to spend his life building an empire just so that he can spend his retirement fishing on the lake.
Now What?
I have some longer term plans which hopefully kick in around the year 2030. But the gap between now and then seems a mystery. Here's my rough idea of what's going to happen next.
By the new year, I should have finished my MSc. That will help me determine if I want to do a Professional Doctorate or similar at some point in the future.
I'll have completed a full year in my new job. That will be enough time to know if I want to continue doing it for a bit longer, or whether I'll start casting my eye around.
And then… I don't know. I guess my choices are:
- Stay where I am.
- Find another Civil Service job - either more interesting or better paid but with a similar work/life balance.
- Take a risk and go work for myself (doing what?!) or for someone else (who?!)
- Start a new course of study and, maybe, convince work to fund it.
And, you know what? I'm happy with not planning. Sure, I might see the perfect job which I'm not qualified for. In which case, I'll look at how I get qualified.
The world isn't short on opportunities.
@Edent Superb post, and one to which I can relate personally so much.
@Edent wow… with the team-hopping aside, you've captured "me" remarkably well. People management doesn't really interest me but making a material difference to people (rather than organisations, although they may be a proxy) is what drives me.Thankyou for sharing.
@neil @Edent Really enjoyed that too. Refreshing perspective. Not heard often.
Really enjoyed reading this - the points around impact and risk tolerance were so interesting! Thank you for sharing.
I still think that there's a nut to crack about bringing the Individual Contributor track to DDaT - that thing of being a Distinguished [specialist name] to reflect a senior senior (decades of experience rather than 3-5).
@Edent excellent, and I'm sharing this with my husband, because I think he's in a similar place
I fear you're approaching the contracting decision point, only way to stay specialist and increase £££ working with civil service imho ☹️
It’s quite possible that posts like this will help the right opportunity find you.
I think the line management thing can be quite fun. But aside from not wanting to do it, I’m never convinced they do actually want managers. They always seem to want people who speak and act like managers
Great post.
@Edent considered dxw? For example, https://www.dxw.com/careers/lead-technologist/ Lead Technologist
This is something I've felt pretty strongly too
Wonder if there's a public sector-focused consultancy that has the right framework in place to let you carve out your niche while still getting paid your value? Consultancies come with their own set of drawbacks though, I guess
Between this and https://shkspr.mobi/blog/2021/11/what-is-my-career-development-plan/ you've captured well a lot of my experiences. I'm also a magpie type; so far my "web tech" career has seen me work in sectors like web hosting, advertising, productivity tools, engineering, retail, health, and cyber security. Whatever my next role is will likely be a different sector again.
These days whenever managers ask about career plans or progression, I tend to just send them a link to something I wrote a few years ago: https://shoehornwithteeth.com/ramblings/2018/08/my-future-in-tech/
Hopefully writing these posts and linking to them is enough of an explanation for future questions about your career.
Rachel says:
I feel the same! In the early 2000s I attended a lecture at the Royal Institution about life expectancy which really struck me.
The jist was: life expectancy has been steadily increasing as science figures out how to solve the predominant cause of death per generation. But as the percentage of older people outweighs the younger generation that's now causing (a) a pension crisis, because there just arent enough young people to pay for them, and (b) a political and cultural stagnation and generational conflict as the now too powerful older generation naturally is less open to new ideas or change.
To solve the pension crisis we need to work longer (into our 80s if we're healthy), rethink our salary expectations as we age, reduce executive responsibilities and develop 'mentor-not-management' relationships between the older generation at work and the new career entrants.
Because our salaries are tied to responsibility and 'intensity', and salaries are expected to increase ever upwards, we're stuck on this treadmill. But our needs for salary peak in our mid thirties. But once kids are grown, mortgages are paid off, and all toys purchased we dont need so much. But we also need to work longer because there just arent enough young people to pay the pensions. Yet, even if we need to keep working into our 70s and 80s, we'll be tired (biology being what it is). So the solution is to work with less 'intensity' and relinquish responsibility, be happy with a lower salary...but the key piece of this picture is the nature of that work and the relationship between the generations.
After we've passed the peak of learning in a career, we could transition into mentors and work in partnership with a career entrant to pass on experience (most career entrants are just thrown in at the deep end) with the autonomy lying with the younger partner. Both partners would benefit in different ways.
Just passing that on in case it sparks something
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